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Meetings (TTS 015.)

August 8th, 2007 (11:59 am)
pensive
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current mood: pensive

Ten people you wish you could meet

1. Jack Twist. Well, I wish I could re-meet 'em. Maybe be a lil' nicer to 'em.
2. Wish I go back an' meet Ennis all over again. Re-live th'happy times.
3. Alma Jr.'s new boyfriend. Er, fiancee.
4. Jack Twist's wife, Lurleen.
5. Jack's son.
6. Munroe's fam'ly. Th'rest of it.
7. Jenny's new boyfriend.
8. The President of th'United States.
9. Th'people in charge o'runnin' Wyomin'. What, th'senators? Er somethin'?
10. It ain't really a person, but I wanna go to th'spot where Ennis an' Jack would go "fishin'" all th'time. See it fer m'self.

Character l Alma Del Mar
Fandom l Brokeback Mountain

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TTS - 011. Family

August 2nd, 2007 (04:10 pm)
sad
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current mood: sad

Ten things about your family.

[locked from everyone]

1. My two girls, Jenny an' Alma Jr., are th'two best thangs that ever happened t'me.
2. Ennis ain't mine no more.
3. Ennis considers Jack more a part of our fam'ly than he does me.
4. Alma Jr. an' Jenny don't know nothin' 'bout their Daddy (at least, I don't think they do).
5. I don't love Monroe th'way I loved an' still love Ennis.
6. Monroe don't love me, neither. It was jus' convenient.
7. I don't want no more kids.
8. Sometimes, I wish I was Jack so that Ennis would look at me th'way he used t'.
9. I never saw m'future fam'ly th'way they turned out.
10. They're th'most important people in m'life, period.

Alma Del Mar [userpic]

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August 5th, 2006 (02:06 pm)
crappy

current mood: crappy

OOC: After much deliberation, I've decided to take a hiatus. My life has become too busy, too stressful, and too chaotic to try and keep up with my muses. I lack the energy and enthusiasm to write the answers to the prompts, though I greatly wish to do so. My mind is so bogged down with other happenings and issues I currently have in my own life, and so it leaves little to no room for my pups and their voices.

I do hope that this funk I find myself in won't last for too long, but even if it comes to me withdrawing my pups from the communities I am involved in, I truly enjoyed writing to and with all of you. But don't get too comfortable without me; I hope to be back shortly.

Maryalice.
(Mun for Mia Dickerson: CSI Las Vegas, Alma Del Mar: Brokeback Mountain, Hatsumomo: Memoirs of a Geisha, and Lisa Rowe: Girl, Interrupted)

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Inheritance (v. 135, TM)

July 17th, 2006 (08:59 pm)
contemplative

current mood: contemplative

Talk about something you inherited. (It could be an object, a physical attribute, a belief, etc.)

I was always told by m'Daddy that I got my Mama's simplicity. I don't know if he meant it in a mean way, but I don't think he was too far from th'truth.

I've always been a simple kind o'girl. Ain't never needed much, ain't never wanted much. I had friends growin' up who had dreams that were too big fer Wyomin'. That were too big fer our small town. After high school, they went an' left fer colleges and universities that was 'round the United States. Place I ain't never heard of before. But I didn't want none o'that.

I wanted what m'Mama had wanted growin' up. I wanted t'marry a man I loved, an' I wanted t'raise a family t'gether. I wanted t'cook 'em meals, an' sit out on th'porch with 'em when the sun started settin'. I wanted t'grow old, an' play with m'grandkids. Bake 'em cookies, an' spoil 'em, even when their Mama told me not to. I wanted a simple kind o'life, an' I know I got that from m'own Mama.

We didn't need nothin' big or grand, like some folk. We didn't never want none of it, neither. An' though a lot of that didn't work out as I'd hoped, I didn't never lose touch with what how my Mama raised me.

Muse l Alma Del Mar
Fandoms l Misc. Movies (Brokeback Mountain)
196 Words.

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Gratitude (v. 1.16, ROTM)

July 17th, 2006 (07:28 pm)
grateful

current mood: grateful

Did you get something you wanted? Good. Now thank the person who gave it to you.

Ennis,

Just wanted t'thank you fer givin' me th'one, well, two thangs I ever wanted in life: our Alma Junior an' Jenny. You probably know that my Mama ain't never told me nothin' 'cept that raisin' a family's th'best thang a girl can ever do. An' I ain't never wanted nothin' more than t'raise a family. With a man I loved an' cared 'bout.

An' though we've been through more than what most people go through in a lifetime, I know that there ain't no one else I'd want fer Alma Jr. an' Jenny's Daddy. I know that marryin' you, an' havin' our girls with you, was th'best thang I could o'ever done. An' sure, we didn't have no perfect marriage. An' we had plenty o'thangs to worry 'bout. But who has a perfect marriage? Or who doesn't have nothin' to worry 'bout?

I know I said a lot of thangs in th'time we was married. I just wanted you t'know that .. despite all that's happened, Ennis, I'll always love you. An' I'll always be grateful fer havin' you in my life.

Love,
Yer Alma.

Muse l Alma Del Mar
Fandom l Brokeback Mountain (Books/Movies)
194 Words.

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Love (v. 1.15, ROTM)

July 12th, 2006 (09:43 pm)
contemplative

current mood: contemplative

Tell someone you love them, without using any of the following words: love, adore, dear, treasure, cherish and worship.

Ennis,

Despite all we've gone an' been through, you know I ain't never saw you as nothin' but th'man I married, th'boy I fell fer. You ain't never been nothin' else t'me. Yer th'Daddy of our children, an' I thank God ev'ry day fer 'em.

I know now that sayin' somethin' to you 'bout Jack was wrong. Knowin' how yer temper gets, I should o'kept m'dang mouth shut. But I didn't. An' I regret gettin' you so angry. Wasn't fair t'Junior an' Jenny, an' it wasn't fair t'you. Guess I just .. had t'know whether what I saw, what I thought I saw, an' what I thought 'bout you an' Jack was true. An' it was. I knew by th'way you reacted that yer fishin' trips weren't really 'bout no fish, but 'bout Jack instead. But that don't mean I didn't still feel th'same way 'bout you, darlin'.

When I first figured out what was goin' on b'tween you an' Jack, I was hurt. I felt betrayed. I felt like th'life I was livin' with you an' with our girls was a lie. I felt like th'affection you showed me since we was kids was just pretend. An' you didn't feel nothin' towards me from th'beginnin'. I realized, though, that I couldn't get m'stubborn self to stop carin' 'bout you.

Guess what I'm tryin' t'say is .. you took m'whole heart, Ennis Del Mar. M'whole heart. An', well, I guess I ain't never got it back.

Your Alma.

Muse l Alma Del Mar
Fandom l Brokeback Mountain (Books/Movies)
263 Words.

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Voicemail For Alma Del Mar (hearts_andminds)

July 10th, 2006 (10:57 pm)
confused

current mood: confused

*beep!*

... Oh! Howdy, ya'll. You've reached Alma Del Mar. I ain't 'round t'get to th'phone right now, but if ya'll leave yer name an' some kind o'message, I'll be sure t'get back t'you as soon as I can.

*long pause*

Is th'dang thing off? Or do I have t'go an' do it all again?

*beep!*

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Excuses (v. 134, TM)

July 8th, 2006 (02:27 pm)
morose

current mood: morose
current song: th'scientist, coldplay.

What is the lamest excuse you've ever given for something you've done?

"As far behind as we are on th'bills, it makes me nervous not t'use any sort o'protection."

"If you don't want no more o'my kids, I'll be happy t'just leave you alone."

"I'd have 'em if you'd support 'em."


I ain't never enjoyed makin' love t'Ennis. I loved 'em, after all. I'd always loved 'em. But I knew that our love makin' wasn't th'same fer 'em. I could tell by th'way he looked at me, pretendin' t'see someone else, or th'way he'd close his eyes so he could pretend I wasn't who I was. An' I knew it was Jack that he was thinkin' 'bout. It wasn't me no more.

When we was first married, he'd look at me while we made love. He'd touch m'face, bringin' his lips close t'mine, breathin' on my skin. But he'd look at me. Th'only time he'd close his eyes was when he was finishin', an' that was normal.

But that night, I couldn't do it no more. I couldn't ignore him closin' his eyes, lookin' at me but not seein' me .. it got t'be too much fer me. Without th'love that was there in th'beginnin' of our marriage, our makin' love wasn't no good anymore. I guess it served its purpose if we was both feelin' lonely, but it wasn't never th'same.

An' besides all that, I didn't want no more kids. Not with Ennis. He was already gone more than he was there with Alma Jr. an' Jenny. We didn't need no third child comin' into a family with a Daddy who wasn't never 'round. We was already strugglin' so hard t'make ends meet fer th'four of us. M'job down at th'convenience store didn't provide no big income, an' Ennis was havin' trouble findin' a steady job fer himself.

Maybe it wasn't no bad excuse that I gave 'em. Or maybe I just found a lot o'reasons fer us t'stop makin' love completely. Maybe we could o'had a third child, an' we could o'managed t'make thangs work. Maybe I was just lookin' fer excuses t'explain why I had t'do what I did next. Maybe I had t'justify my takin' away th'kids and filin' fer divorce.

Maybe I was just scared.

Muse l Alma Del Mar
Fandom l Misc. Movies (Brokeback Mountain)
355 Words. (Without opening quotes)

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Love (v. 3, EM)

July 5th, 2006 (07:06 pm)
sad

current mood: sad

What would you do for the love of your life? What wouldn't you do?

What didn't I do fer Ennis? At th'time we was t'gether, I thought him t'be th'dang love o'my life. Didn't work out that way, o'course. But I don't got no regrets 'bout that. Well, not many.

I did all that I could fer 'em. Cooked his meals. Bore an' raised his children. Kept 'em happy. As happy as I could keep 'em, I 'spose. There was somethin' in him that I ain't never satisfied, an' it was somethin' only Jack could fulfill. I won't never understand it, but I know I wasn't no good fer that.

But th'biggest thang I did fer 'em was keepin' his secret. I never told nobody. It wasn't nobody's business, anyway. I wasn't 'sposed t'know 'bout it, neither. Happened t'see 'em kissin', in th'stairwell. I was dragged into it 'cause he's he was m'husband. But it wasn't m'business, really. It wasn't nobody's but theirs. An' I didn't have no right tellin' no one. So I didn't. I never said a word t'nobody. I made a silent promise with m'self 'bout that. Promised t'never say a word, unless Ennis wanted me to. But I knew he'd never want that. He was strugglin' enough as it is. He didn't need me t'add onto it.

Th'only thang I wouldn't do fer 'em was continue livin' th'lie. When I found out 'bout him, I tried t'dig m'head in th'sand to pretend like I didn't know what was goin' on. But I did. An' eventually, it caught up t'me. I couldn't ignore it no more. I had t'get m'self out o'that lie of a life.

I just couldn't stay with 'em.

Muse l Alma Del Mar
Fandom l Brokeback Mountain
293 Words.

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Stress (v. 1.14, ROTM)

July 5th, 2006 (06:50 pm)
numb

current mood: numb

You've finally snapped. Stress has gotten the better of you, and you can no longer think in long descriptive sentences. Write about the day you lost your mind, using sentences comprised of six words or fewer.

Spoilers!Collapse )

Muse l Alma Del Mar
Fandom l Brokeback Mountain (Movies)
226 Words.

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